When the music stops,
we will find our chairs.
I hope your chair is not taken.
We enjoyed the dancing,
the songs sound good in a good mood
don’t you find?
A wholesome high washes through us,
no spirits or fumes required.
Soak it in, that feeling of hope,
for hope is fuel for the hardships ahead.
Reality is never quite
what the pomp proclaims.
Vapid motivation
‘Don’t worry’
reads the meme
well, ok then …
I’ll hang worry
on a hook
like an old coat
I’ll discard it
I’ll feel lighter
I’ll read a book
as if worry were
a skin to peel away
as if worry were a choice
damn that imbecilic meme
stating ‘Smile and don’t worry’
advice from good hearted
vacuous fools.
From within
The cafe bubbled effervescently in that afternoon, a family celebrated a wonderful morning. Jim sat holding a champagne flute, watching joy unfurl as sound. It was hard to capture the gist of individual conversations, as they competed with one-another. Just the odd exclamation promptly drowned out with laughter. He looked through the flute, to watch how the tiles and the table legs warp, but he saw nothing through the dirty glass. He was conscious not to look bored, but has numbed in whatever neutral contented face he was going for. Jim wonders if he is possibly looking comatose or inane. He cannot see his reflection in the glass.
The other two at his table looked out at the celebration. One looked like she was doing the same as him, hanging on to an expression that looked something like contentment, perhaps she is contented. The other made eye contact with a man across the room, he held his glass up, in cheers, then drained it and let out a sigh that evaporated swiftly into chatter. Jim wonders to say something, but the small talk is done and all else seems to elude him at this time. His chair is numbing his seat.
As he retreats inwards, he watches his limbs, he becomes very aware of their presence, he wonders how to place them ordinarily. Jim drifts away, his eyes focus on nothing in particular. A question draws him out from the fog. The crispness of reality starts his heart. “How do you know the bride?” She asks, standing over the table, nursing an empty flute. Jim’s eyes regain focus as he pans up along her blue dress. He met her attentive blue eyes “I work with Mike.” He says. Mike is the only one here he knows. He met his fiancé just once. Mike had forgotten his case. This short reply takes the sparkle from her eyes, she offers a brief “Nice to meet you,” and moves along. Jim sinks back into the fog.